Take A Picture, It'll Last Longer..

to everybody out there, i feel as if my time is near. i can’t keep dealing with this. my life is fucked up. and nothing is going good for me. NOTHING. this past month..damn..its been fuckin crazy. tattoo, kicked out, dad hates me, mom misses me, ex boyfriend in the picture again, the girl i’m in love with is confusin as fuck, grandpa finished chemo, aunts going to court for kids, its just a bunch of shit..didnt pass my finals, dont have any idea on how the hell imma pay for fuckin college, i dont even feel like going..i’m done. just done. life is not so swell anymore. the only thing that makes me happy doesnt last long. the intoxication of the drugs make me happy for the time being..then smack back to reality..i cant do it. wyatt, i love you. and i want you to always remember that. brooke, god..your the first person i’ve ever comitted too..ever. i love you soo much. your the love of my life. i wanna marry you one day. i wanna be with you forever. forever in your heart. i miss wakin up next to you..i love your smile. your hair. your body. your touch. everything. you always made me smile. laugh. i could never stay mad at you. never last a day without talkin to you. i really want things to work out between us. i really do. i can wait forever. but that goes for dead or alive.. i’m sorry..

wow, can things get any fucking worse? i mean what the fuck? really!? i have no place to stay. no job. no car. no liscence. lost the love of my life. what the fuck did i do wrong god? what can i do to make everything better? i’m just so fucking confused..and nothing is working out for me anymore. maybe i should just give up on life in general?

the whole idea of thanksgiving is to spend time with your family..or the people your thankful for having in your life. well it’s kind of hard when your kicked out of your house&not welcomed back anytime soon. &&when the person your most thankful for can’t even spend that time with you.. so muuch for thanksgiving.. :/

all the hate in this world about same sex marriage..is just ridiculous. why cant we love the ones we want? god made us the way he wanted us..so why dissapoint him with no same sex marriage? i dont get it..&if i was to get married tomorrow..i’d have to go to some other state..bc its illegal in the state i live in..which in other words..theres not that many states that allow it. so i’m limited. which isnt right. SCREW THE HATERSS >:O WERE ALL STILL HUMANS!

you are my everythinggg..i want to be with you forr everrr(: im fallin forrr youu babee<3

holding you last night while you were sleeping was the best thing..EVER. i think..i might be fallin for you…

your taste still remains on my lips, your smell still remains on my skin..